Book- I Think I Am In Love
Author- Devanshi Sharma
Pages- 195
The book has three main characters- Meera, Kavya (Meera’s
younger sister) and Ishaan.
This book begins with the journey of Meera, Ishaan and rest
of their group (consisting of 6 people) to Ranchi for one of their colleagues’ wedding.
While the rest of the gang was overjoyed and excited to explore the new city in
the evening, these two weirdoes (Meera and Ishaan) sat inside the hotel room,
pretending to look into their phones with awkwardness freely flowing in the
room, accompanied with silence and anger.
The room was bursting with unheard feelings, unsaid
emotions, open-ended conversations and an orphaned friendship which was
hopefully waiting for both of them to adopt it. In a room hypnotized by silence,
Meera’s words were piercing. But, as always, Ishaan’s silence was sharper than
her words. He made sure his reply was as wry as it could be.
Meera wasn’t a lover of wedding as such, but the fact that
she was travelling to one of her closest colleague’s wedding gave her exciting
vibes. She was a popular fashion blogger. And with a good thirty-two thousand
people following her, the moment she posted her picture with the status stating
‘Travelling to my best friend’s wedding! By the way, travelling on a train
after five long years’, there was a flood of likes and comments. She replied to
a few comments with a dazzling smile that shone through her lips. For others,
recreation was in enjoying a vacation while for Meera, recreation was hidden in
her work.
Ishaan, on the other hand, was a serious guy who kept himself
different to different people. He knew he could not focus on anything else but
her innocent eyes which demanded answers to many unanswered questions. Which he
didn’t have. He always said he did not care; he always said he could replace
people and he always mentioned bluntly how she was just another friend to him.
Meera was bent on ignoring those words, inferring from his
actions instead. Who would consider such words when everything was so beautiful
that the chances of what was happening right then were as bleak as rain on an
absolutely sunny day?
Wiping that tear away, Meera remembered how miserably she
had pleaded with him to stay normal in front of others. She knew she wouldn’t
be able to take sympathy of known eyes, the sympathy which would remind her
that she was outrightly ignored by her best friend. There were some mistakes
which she had made earlier, and now when she started solving them, he had sworn
to make some.
The sudden change in Ishaan, after she visited his home was
unacceptable by Meera. She couldn’t think of one thing which would lead to the
change in his behaviour. Every day, Meera wouldn’t sleep on time but, she would
get up at sharp 4. She would work endlessly and then leave for her office. For
her blogging was her dream and the work at the office was an experience to learn
new things which would help her in her life.
Every day by evening, she would fall less on energy and would struggle
to survive with the feeling of loneliness and she wouldn’t fail in failing
herself every single day.
That feeling of failing yourself each and every moment of
the day- that kills you inside out, especially when you know your worth is much
beyond what you are limiting yourself to. When you disappoint no one else, but
yourself; when you trouble no one else but yourself; when you demean nobody but
the self sitting quietly inside you. That was exactly how Meera was feeling.
This book is a turmoil of emotion. Read it further to know
how was it Ishaan’s fault if she had taken a vow to disappoint herself? How is
it anyone else’s responsibility if she had vowed to fall in her eyes? What was
the issue that was stopping Ishaan to act normally?
Overall rating: 3/5
